Offline

You are not online. This has not happened before. You are always online. I am wishful of speaking to you right now, but you are poof. This is very disconcerting.

3am Walks

I keep thinking about those walks and I really miss you. I wish we could have had at least one good three am walk last semester, oh well, maybe the next one will be.

Gosssip

I talked about this with you the other day. I simply don't like gossip the way I used to. Most of the time when I'm upset about something I've learned not to talk about it and keep it to myself. I try not to tell every other person around me what someone else did wrong, because I know that eventually I may regret that. I don't want to tarnish someone else's reputation simply for one harsh or hasty act. I've started to realize that I don't like talking to other people who are gossips. I simply hate the feeling I get being around them now. I've also noticed the connection to the idea that those people that gossip the most are the ones that judge the most. I don't want to be gossiped about and I don't want to be judged.

eHarmony

I am secretly quite glad that you convinced me to do this site with you. It's fun being able to talk to so many single guys and knowing that they're talking to you because they're interested in you. It gives a kick of confidence.

Family BBQ

I had another family BBQ and the same place as last year. You were with me that time and everyone commented on how alike we were. You were also a twerp at that event because you kept helping my brothers to steal my shoes and hide them in a tree that I couldn't reach. There was another little boy there today who's name was Brain, but his parents called him Bri Bri. That made me miss you, the you that I remember. The person that was there before college changed you.

Pill

I hope that you too get placed on the pill so you won't have to deal with a period every month.

Busy

I'm sorry hun, I was unable to hang out with you today. It got so busy, and by the end of the day I just wanted quiet time to read my book. I hate backing out on promises, or commitments, but I needed to do so.

Mizu

My dad wants me to pick that restaurant for my birthday dinner but I'm not sure I can do that. I know that it sounds fantastic and that you think it's absolutely fabulous, but it's because of you I can't choose it. It is your favorite restaurant. If I went there for my birthday it would be a night full of sad memories instead of a celebration.

Name

I see your name and it makes me smile.

Winnie the Pooh

Once again I'm copying you, but I love this too much not to. This absolutely represents what I think about every single person on this planet.

If there ever comes a day when we can't be together keep me in your heart, I'll stay there forever.

I love you all.

Dreams

I wish you would stay away from my dreams. I can forget about you during the day most of the time recently, but now I've discovered that, if I remember my dreams, you're normally in them. Not all of them are happy dreams either... As a matter of fact, most of them are terrible.

Swing

I want you to be here and I want my porch swing to be clean. I want to swing upside down and look at the stars on a clear summer night. Wouldn't that be fun to do again, or even for the rest of you to do for the first time?

Babies

They are EVERYWHERE!!! I can't seem to get away from them. Every story I read, ever restaurant I go into, and every store I shop at. Why do I want babies so bad? I'm a college student, I'm not supposed to want babies yet! You, missy, are missing out on all the baby watching going on around here. Also, btw, I still don't think it's right for you to blatantly stare at babies -- that's just creepy.

Also, I'm very tempted to follow in your footsteps other missy and start taking surreptitious pictures of the various cute children I see around me.

Cancer Cure

You are ridiculous! Just because it worked in one case 4 years ago, does not mean that it was ready to produce 4 years ago. They needed to test the cure on various other people of different ages, ethnicity, body weight, gender, and tons of other factors. Plus they needed to monitor the first successful person to be cured to be sure that in the long term it was in fact a cure! Silly boy, you are arguing a pointless argument.

Road Well Traveled

Every time I head to my friends house I accidentally pass her road because I have it drilled into me to head to your house. That road is so familiar to me, ever dip, huge hole, and turns are memorized. I hope I get to drive it again this summer when you are actually home.

Bright Moon

Tonight the sky was so clear and bright. I just thought of you and how much you would have loved it. I'm betting you're asleep right now though. I hope you had a good 21st birthday.

I also remember the night I spent with you sitting in the park looking at the stars. That was several years ago, but we had fun. I wish we could return to that park and star gaze once again. I believe that was one of our first sleep overs together. Your lap was particularly nice to rest my head in, lol.

Green Truck

I see green trucks everywhere and I can't help but search for the large dent in the side of them. I know that only one truck could have such a dent as that. I know you aren't here, but I search for it anyway.

DDR

Oh I wish all of you were here. I want to play DDR with some friends. I want to work out the fun way, and it is so entertaining to watch everyone else play.

Legend of the Seeker

Ok, you got me. I finally bought the books. And yes, I know that they are not called "The Legend of the Seeker" but right now I'm just too lazy to look up the proper title. I know a lot of you will enjoy the fact that I'm reading them. I just feel so out of the loop sometimes. Tee hee

Running

I absolutely love to run. Sure, it takes a lot of effort to get motivated to actually start to run, but once I do it I absolutely love it. I may not be as fast as you, but maybe one day I will be. I also am pleased that I don't get cranky like you do, but I hope one day you enjoy it like I do. And as for YOU I want to run with you and show you how much fun it can be; we shall lose weight together.

Breadsticks

I was at Olive Garden today and I remembered all those times I would go with you. One particular memory was when you had just picked me up from an orthodontist appointment and took me out to lunch before bringing me back to my mom's. That day I think I ate 14 breadsticks (regretted it very much later when I was kneeling over the toilet) and then the waitress sent me home with more. I love all the memories I have shared with you. I only wish you were still around to share some more. I miss you greatly.

Talk Nerdy To Me

I got a shirt that had "Talk Nerdy To Me" written on it and I immediately thought of you. I hope that I can wear this around you someday. Perhaps the day that I actually get to meet you in person? I think you'd find it funny.

Invader

I woke up thinking about you. You are almost always on my mind and you just don't want to leave. I need you to leave. I need you to let me be. The sad part is, I don't think that's within your power. If you tried to do it, it would probably hurt more than anything else. I just miss you.

A friend mentioned she wanted me to go with her to WSU today, and I immediately got excited because I thought I could see you. Then I remembered that it was my request we didn't have any contact. I really hate this.

Memories of Rain

I chose the new background because I love the feeling it gives me. Some of these moments of remembrance are going to be sad because I have lost lots of love in the past. But there are a few memories of rain that make me happy. Like the time you jumped into puddles with me, or the time that all of you called me ridiculous for doing so. I love the rain, and I think it gives the perfect feeling for this blog.

Giggles

You make me giggle. When I'm in a playful mood you go with it and just have fun. When I'm sad you understand. I am very glad I met you, you're an incredible person. I even laugh at the fact that you pimped out your friend. :)

Indeed

Every time I hear this word I think of you and you. You two made my school year so enjoyable, I'm so glad that I met you two. I'm sad that I will no longer be your roommate, but I'm sure we shall still have fun adventures together.

Frosting

I saw your post about frosting and I just couldn't help myself. I want more frosting, thankfully I have none in my house. I want to lose weight so bad and having frosting in my house would indeed be bad for that.

Farm House

I met someone else that belonged to Farm House today. He was rather interesting, somehow, I get the feeling that if you stay there longer you'll end up like him. I really hope that college doesn't ruin you. He was betrayed by Farm House though, so I hope you too don't get into trouble.

Because of You

It is because of you that I've started this blog. I hope you enjoy it. I think I too will find solstice in this.