What I want

What I want I can't have. I want other people to want the same thing as me. I cannot change what they want, therefore, I perpetually do not get what I want. I do not want them to bend their will to me, I want them to do the same stuff as me or as what I want because they get enjoyment out of it too. I wish people would stop asking me what I want. What I want, I cannot have.

Hospital

I didn't even realize how terrified I was in the hospital until I relive the memory. I'm glad I'm not blind.

Wondering

I know you still love her, you've admitted this to me. I also know it's possible to love more than one person, but I can't help but think, will you ever love someone as much as you love her?

I miss you

I miss you and wish I could have you back.

Pain

I had really hoped that these pain killers would help, but it seems that even them can't stop the pain from surgery.

Surgery

My mom asked me if I wanted to wait until you or you could join me. You I knew wouldn't be able to because of distancing and work. You I knew wouldn't be able to because you just don't seem to care as much as you used to. I told her no rather than explain all that.