So many things on my mind... It doesn't want to stop thinking.
My classes are all so fascinating this year that it'll certainly be interesting. Seems like my homework is taking longer this semester as well because I'm more invested in it. I'm also amazed that simply because I'd been praised for my intelligence my whole life, I've been put into a mindset that actually hinders how I do in school. I'm hoping to change that. I'm hoping to change a lot this semester. I hope to become healthier and I hope to do better in school. I want to save up as much as possible as well, but I'm not sure that'll be all that possible.
I'm very concerned about him and his finances and I still think he's covering up a little too much about them. He's going to end up in big trouble and all because he's embarrassed of what's happened to him. I love him so much that I just can't bear for that to happen. I'm especially concerned for January when I won't be around to ask the prying questions.
I'm also worried about you. You're so quiet now that it worries me. I don't know if you hate hanging out with me or if you like it. I haven't heard from you in forever and I feel like you're ignoring me because you think I just want to use you for disney world, which I'm not
I really want to go to disney world... that would be incredible. Especially with that family. I want to do everything that they're doing and experience everything that they're going to experience. It's been my dream to go at Christmastime and I was even invited to go, which just makes it that much worse. I had to be the adult and choose education over a week in DisneyWorld at Christmastime.
I'm really sorry I missed your birthday. I tried to figure out when things were happening to hang out with you but it just didn't work out. I was actually pretty upset that I didn't get to see you the entire time that you were here. Things just seem to be a little bit awkward between me and everyone else in the apartments. I also know that you'd understand. I still feel bad that I wasn't there for your birthday. I miss you quite a bit.
