Wondering

I miss so many people, but I wonder if they miss me. I wish I could see you, and you, and you right now, but I know that is impossible.

Missing you

I wish you were here, you made things better.

Guilty

Though I may feel guilty talking to you, you are the only one recently that has been able to cheer me up. Everyone else just makes me more upset.

Grah!

If we're in the middle of a fight and you say "this is the wrong time to have this conversation, lets talk about it later" that's just gunna piss me off more. It gets even worse when I say "ok nevermind" and you respond "not nevermind, postponed" because I know that it isn't postponed. We have no other opportunity to talk about this before Saturday. Therefore because it just wasn't the right time for you, it must be a "nevermind". You just logging out after saying a stupid comment just made it all the worse for you. I am so fucking pissed at you, you don't even know. I am quite sure the relationship will end VERY soon.

News Flash

Just because someone doesn't wear make up, doesn't mean that they aren't pretty. Going away to college has most definitely changed me, and coming back I find I want to spend less and less time with you. You are so incredibly judgmental about how people look and act that I find it hard to deal with. On top of that you gossip all the time and it never really makes me feel better. I saw you with your other friend last week, and when we were in walmart you kept talking about how she's gunna let you teach her to be "pretty". I almost shouted at you I was so pissed. That girl is already pretty. You once said that you thought I was more like the other girl, but I see more similarities between me and the "un-pretty" one. I honestly felt bad for her. If she has had the confidence not to wear make-up until now, then she has pretty good self confidence. Constantly talking to someone who is as judgmental as you can change that though. I discovered that for myself. Thankfully, my time apart from you has changed that.

Don't get me wrong, I still love you and think you're a good person, but I do believe you have a bit of growing up to do. I also don't completely blame you for your way of thinking, I know that's how your mother raised you to be. I just hope you realize someday how you act and make other's feel. I think that if you realized that then you'd be happier with yourself as well.

Bad Times

The break up may come sooner than expected. You are driving me nuts and pissing me off all the time. I don't know how much more I can deal with.